ode to dolores

I'm not going out tonight
'cos I don't want to go.

Oh, all the promises we made
All the meaningless and empty words.
Maybe we should burn the house down,
Have ourselves another fight.

If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used.
Do you have to let it linger?

I've always put my cards upon the table.
Let it never be said that I'd be unstable.

I'm not ready for this,
Though I thought I would be.
And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,
A different way to be.

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?
Oh, I thought the world of you,
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong. I was wrong.

And in the night, I could be helpless,
I could be lonely, sleeping without you.
And in the day, everything's complex
There's nothing simple, when I'm not around you.

I try to remain.
I'm trying not to go insane.

I'm still remembering the time
You said you'd be mine.
Yesterday was cold and bare,
Because you were not there.

Understand the things I say, don't turn away from me,
'Cause I've spent half my life out there, you wouldn't disagree.
Understand what I've become, it wasn't my design
You took my thoughts from me
Now I want nothing more.

And the thing that makes me mad
Is the one thing that I had.

I knew, I knew
I'd lose you.
There's no need to argue.
No need to argue anymore.

There's no need to argue anymore
I gave all I could, but it left me so sore.

And the thing that gets to me
Is you'll never really see,
And the thing that freaks me out
Is I'll always be in doubt.

Do you remember
The things we used to say?
I feel so nervous
When I think of yesterday.

I wanted to be so perfect you see,
I wanted to be so perfect .